"Welcome to my life. You see, it is not easy. But I do it right. Welcome to my dream, he is the only one who needs me and remains at my side. "
What a song. beautiful. Today I bumped
As with Kilian, one of my best friends, after a very entertaining movie theater to the new age (the cell phone rang in one tour), he asked me:
"And what are yours? ? Wishes for the new year "
wishes came like a shot from the gun: " a stable job, health, a good degree of Theapie ... and maybe someday a partner. "
Right now I feel my single status is not a burden. I have to do simply with the therapy and my daily life enough. I know of no man around me, which I would expect that what I 've been going through. So I stay alone and that is wise.
remains the desire for normality. I have a normal life at the moment and I hope that this will change during the year. work goes, participate in the community, my household , the cats, visit friends and easily find the place that I can fill in this world. Rest and find peace.
But I have little time for normalcy, too many drives and moves me and that's no mistake, this is terribly important. But I'm still not arrived in my life.
I hope that changes soon, currently it is not clear.
Welcome to my life. You read in part with a very long time here and are certainly eager to know when there is even a little quiet for me. Probably there would still tell a lot, now I chat talk about what goes around in my head.
I'm looking forward to your reactions, the many small contributions, the emails and encouragement.
Welcome to my life. Feel you should also probably in the next life with me.
the evening shadows seem huge and even I feel so childish small. I wish the day would 'boundless, but the night brings the sun slowly.
weigh heavily on one occasion springs. I would wish no longer master of thought. before the door closes the day now, ' I want you reading my thoughts.
Stay with your overnight. spark in me your fire, melts the frost fear of my soul. Stay with your overnight are driving my time, that rises before the sun just for me.
Stay with your overnight.
The safety of the day stealing continues, so many of your words stand all in the room. My doubts and my questions seem absurd, it say you can trau'n your words.
All your pictures, they inspire me, but are also strong words, I need you, before the door closes the day now, wish ' I want you reading my thoughts.
Stay with your overnight. spark in me your fire, melts the frost fear of my soul. Stay with your overnight are driving my time, that rises before the sun just for me.
It's nice to know you, with you to hear or music. Even silence is never embarrassed between us, and that's good!
hypocrisy and lying is pointless , because we mutually see through almost like glass. We make long now no longer apply, and that's good!
you cried in my arms, many a night durchträumt with me, the last doubts resolved. I know you and you me!
You're not tough, you're calm soft. not to like you is not easy! You are not a Lone, You are so wonderfully weak! trust me and use me. What are friends for after all that?
I read 'in your gestures and looking forward, when a real laugh sounds. The bridge between us is tough under pressure, and that's good! We
cost us nervous, exchange ideas and philosophy sometimes the last shirt,
and drink and be with us forever foreign. And that's good!
We have reconciled, fell out, Sun laughed some crude humor, each other courage made. I need you, and you tell me "
Last week, Wednesday afternoon. Josh, my brother and my girlfriend Anna (now 10 years since his wife) sit comfortably with a coffee in my living room.
"Do you have this weekend what to do? Will not you come with us to Krefeld? and I found the idea excellent, at first glance.
I needed a Taptenwechsel come out, sometimes, do not just sit at home ... with two people I love beyond words, to be together ... my heart went on!
was less ideal, the fact no vacation than to have and somehow it was all so terribly spontaneous.
I told in the next sentence with coffee the next morning in the operation of the invitation and to Night I asked the best boss of all:
"When did you have before actually, I ask for the free afternoon tomorrow?" "Uh ... no. I'm not on vacation anymore!" "So what? Can you reproduce it?" "Uh ... that would be very spontaneous!" "TRISS! SKY ONE YET! Call your brother and I must commit?" "Uh ... no, I'll do it!"
I love my boss!
And so we left Friday afternoon to Krefeld.
We had an hour to reach the first traffic jam, listening to music, chatted, laughed and said nothing. In zähflissenden transport laid his head on Josh Anna's shoulder and I said, grinning, "Hey, watch out for traffic!". Seeing how fond the two after ten years of marriage have, for me, which is in terms of "relationship" very disillusioned, very refreshing.
We arrived, unpacked, I moved into my bed and the heaters were first turned up. Mama took care of the cats and I wrote a short text message that everything was fine.
The man of my best friend wrote an enthusiastic text message that her baby had arrived safely and Josh and Anna were pleased with me about the new arrival.
was in itself not more exciting: the two days were filled with sleep, rest, watch movies, eat well, the two Clear out the watch and the many small and so important conversations in passing. I had the honor to cook again for more than one person, and as we clock at half past ten on Saturday night shifts into third film, we still giggling over the previous films. May have been guarding the wine that we were so silly.
As I sat on the train today, then home, I thought again about the weekend and I remembered the song of "pure" a, "What friends are for?" and I realized how nice it is to not have to be alone. Well, I'm often lonely, but I'm never alone. My friends, my family are there for me and take care of me in a loving way As I have not earned.
Josh gave me packing up my belongings got here! I have them bought for you, enjoy it, "a CD in hand. I could easily arrive at them and "be." I did not have them pretend that I'm tough and invulnerable. You see how it goes and I currently do everything to make it easier for me to make. My brother and sister listen to me, carry me, do my shopping, I put down the coffee and are just there for me.
No more, no less.
But that's what I'm good.
your friends, it was incredibly nice to spend the weekend not to be alone with me, but once out of my to 'everyday' may tear. This is important for me. I'm so good, that challenges me, gives me strength.
When my therapist at the last meeting asked me what would be the most important moment in my life because it was shot like a shot: "My social life, my friends, my family." Singles
We need friends. How do community, conversations, laughter, tears, silence and shared food.
