"You look at me and see the girl Who lives inside the golden world But don't believe That's all there is to see You'll never know the real me
She smiles through a thousand tears And harbours adolescent fears She dreams of all That she can never be She wades in insecurity And hides herself inside of me
Don't say she takes it all for granted I'm well aware of all I have Don't think that I am disenchanted Please understand
It seems as though I've always been
Somebody outside looking in Well, here I am for all of them to bleed But they can't take my heart from me And they can't bring me to my knees They'll never know the real me"
A sign shall be given, a virgin will conceive. A human baby bearing, undiminished deity. The glory of the nations, a light for all to see, that hope for all who will embrace his warm reality.
Immanuel, our God is with us. And if God is with us, who could stand against us? Our God is with us, Immanuel.
For all those who live in the shadow of death, a glorious light has dawned. For all those who stumble in the darkness, behold your light has come.
Immanuel, our God is with us. And if God is with us, who could stand against us? Our God is with us, Immanuel.
So what will be your answer? Will you hear the call, of Him who did not spare His son, But gave him for us all? On earth there is no power, there is no depth or height, that could ever separate us from the love of God in Christ.
Immanuel, our God is with us. And if God is with us, who could stand against us? Our God is with us, Immanuel.
I really enjoyed this Christmas season. I have had no trouble with gifts, as I have already begun in mid-November to plan for my friends and shopping. I have deleted appointments, I took time to sit down in my living room to read, listen to music, make cards and me to bathe in the warm glow of my lights. Sometimes I simply inserted a DVD and only have "gone underground" in a different world. The face-off for Christmas Eve, I have delivered on time and then pulled me out of any responsibility. No samples, no nagging, if one missed his text, no plan, no appointments. The others do now for me and I am very very grateful.
Today I had even leisure to go with my parents to the theater! They had heard that the piece is listed "As in Heaven" on the ground and summarily ordered me a card. Actually, I was very tired after the long weekend and had little desire, but the 3 hours in the theater completely enchanted me and I subsequently got this idea! We had a great evening!
I have in recent weeks, countless hours spent on the phone to have time for my friends and talk to them. I put every day a different Christmas CD and sometimes loudly sang along. Even in the pharmacy, we had a Christmas wreath and decorated our Christmas window.
Yes, it was a good time.
lyrics by Michael Card has touched me this year very much. You know now only too well how much I'm currently struggling with myself. Therapy, community, budget, finance ... all this will cost me much and I am chronically tired. The more I enjoy nights like this, where I know it for tomorrow no dates and no limit is, but I just can not sleep and rest. And so I can still write to short VOR 2 clock my blog, it wants something from me no when I get up tomorrow :-). Except maybe the hungry fur faced, but got her at eight Felix dumped into the bowl and then I go to sleep.
Michael Card sings: "If God be for us, who can be against us Our God is with us, Emmanuel!".
What a promise, what a gift!
No matter what drives me now so, God is on my side. He did not leave, he stands by my side and fight with me for me.
After this very, very tough year it's my Christmas present. The hope that Jesus brought into this dark, degenerate world The light that in the greatest darkness still shines. It is not to extinguish.
In my heart is at present very often darkness. I feel sad and hurt, but in those moments of heavenly father ignites a small lamp above me that I lit my way.
He does through the discussions with my family and friends, by my colleagues through the many emails and small greetings that reach me. He gives me a Bible verse, a smile on the tram, a message on my answering machine or a funny e-card. I will hug and kiss, people come up to me and say "Hey, I got you right now awfully!".
I do not know what to do without you, little lights.
"for those who live in the shadow of death, a wonderful light is absorbed. For those who stumble in the darkness, a light has come."
I currently live every day. My therapist said
before last week: "If I did not know that they have such a good, social environment, I would make you commit for the next part of the therapy in a clinic This not be alone But I can see.. that your family and friends who support you and. the only reason I allow you to carry on an outpatient basis. "
What a compliment to my friends!
When I think about what Christmas is clear to me that they are all this year, particularly those little lights that are given to me by my friends. People connect it for me in the rift that separates me from God is more secure. Are spoken prayers for me and they will not go unheard.
And those are the people that are on my side and me every day new evidence that God is with me.
I have no words to them, "Thank You" to say why I have dedicated my friends this blog.
Beloved, You have my heart and I love you very much. It shames me every day again. What would I be without you.
I thank you for mein persönliches, kleines Weihnachten. Der Herr segne Euch!
